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About Molly

Post by lindarkness on Sun Feb 01, 2015 4:56 am

NAME: Molly Weasley II
DATE OF BIRTH: August 26, 2001
SEXUALITY: Bisexual
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PARENTS: Percy and Audrey Weasley
SIBLINGS: Lucy Weasley
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BLOODSTATUS: Squib
OCCUPATION: Police Officer
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ALIGNMENT: Lawful Good
TEMPERAMENT: Melancholic
ENNEAGRAM: Type 19 Wing
MBTI/JUNG: ISFJ
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HISTORY: It was quite conflicting for Molly - growing up in a respectable, upper-middle class household. On the surface, everything appeared to be perfect - they were well off, her parents loved her, they were not excessively famous, her sister was her best friend, and there didn’t seem to be anything to worry about - except for her own nature.
As a child she had always been considered to be a little fragile, a little awkward - somebody who warranted protection, and surely, for a little while, this had been true - when she was young, and easily scared. Yet, her family could not keep her sheltered forever, and as soon as she started school (Muggle school, of course, as she was a Squib), the young girl started to notice the difference between herself and others, and while this realization saddened her, it only reinforced the notion in her that her family was right in wanting to protect her - she was very shy, and had absolutely no idea how to get by with other people. She had convinced herself of her own weakness.
On the other hand, this is also the point where the first insecurities started to spread their seeds in her. Out of fear to mess up, she avoided contact with other people, sticking close to her little sister whenever she could. For her doubting herself, her performance in school suffered as well, and the only subject in which she really dared to show her full potential was sports.
Physical activity was an outlet for her emotions that truly she had no other way how to deal with. Surely, she loved her family, but her position with them had always been a submissive one. It had made her used to being coddled, patronised, and cared for. Before she discovered sports, she didn’t have any notion of how it was to have agency over herself. Being physically active was her way of feeling powerful, and the only field that she could feel confident in.
Molly had always been extremely lacking in her social skills. While she is very observant, and sometimes even good at picking up social cues, such as body language, or facial expressions, she herself has absolutely no concept of how to express herself, or communicate with people. She also sometimes has trouble with deciphering what a certain tone of voice means and struggles with detecting jokes, sarcasm, and occasionally metaphors. Her attempts to make friends were clumsy at best, causing her to give up on that task entirely, and just stick to her sister - an emotional crutch that she very soon became dependent on.
The other children, in turn, tended to avoid her, for the most part. While, from time to time, a few generous souls would attempt to reach out to the girl, Molly never returned those gestures with anything but distant politeness, for she knew they were only born out of pity. Occasionally, she also had to deal with a few bullies, but as long as she had her sister to fall back on to, she was very well able to shrug them off. 
The true problems started to rise as soon as her relationship with her sister started to crumble. Even though Lucy was several years younger than her, they often found themselves in opposite positions, and it almost seems like her younger sibling was looking out for her rather than the other way round. It made sense to her - but often it only reinforced her own perceived inferiority. Lucy, it seemed, was everything that she was not - popular, pretty, smart, and easy to like. More than anything, Molly wanted to be like her, to wear pretty dresses, to have friends, to be adored by everyone around her. For a long time, she refused to acknowledge any faults in her sister, believed everything she said to her, and submissively followed along when she told her to stay behind - and so she was utterly unprepared when they came out in full force.
It was something small, really, that started it all - just one small lie. Yet, it was the last straw - too obvious to be ignored - that violently forced her acknowledge everything that she had observed about her sister before, but had just denied - and lied to herself about it before - that Lucy was adirtyfilthyrottenliar, and that she was selfish, and that she wanted her all to herself, and that she was manipulative and ruthless and that she could not be trusted because she had betrayed her own sister more times that she could now count, and she had noticed it too late to escape it. To this day, Molly avoids every interaction with her sister for she is very stubborn, and once you have lost her trust, she will not ever forgive you.
Things only started to go downhill from there. As she distanced herself more and more from her family, Molly became more and more isolated, and unpredictable. With sports still as her only outcome, she quickly turned to become more violent, and occasions that would not have bothered her before, quickly escalated into physical fights. For her lack of expressing herself, the other students grew to fear her simply for her unpredictable nature, and the fact that it was never visible if she was angry or not.
However, Molly never really saw herself as some sort of bully. After all, she follows a strict code of morals, and will never stand for anything that isn’t fair. Yet, the way she saw herself did not truly match with her actual behavior. While it was true that she would only lash out at people who she thought had deserved it, she was also prone to disproportionate retribution, such as beating someone up for telling a seemingly harmless lie.
After she finished her education, she joined the police force, in order to be more efficient in enforcing justice, and what she thought to be good morals. The training gave her something to focus on, and it helped her to control her violent tendencies. Furthermore, she is quite obedient to her superiors, for her submissive streak still has not faded yet. Molly is someone who truly believes in the work she does, and does not take kindly when somebody questions it ignorantly.
The young women keeps her expression solemn, and somewhat unreadable at all times, though if you pay attention, you will be able to clearly see the emotion in her eyes. While her shyness, and her troubles with expression herself make it difficult for her to actually make connections, the woman strongly craves for physical and emotional intimacy, and is eager to hold on to it when she finds it. A fault in her is still, her strong idealism, and her naivety.
Her voice is just as devoid of emotion as her face is, and as a result of that stoic demeanor she can often come off as rather intimidating. However, she is hardly malicious when it comes to other people, and will often wish that she was more adept at making friends - you would be surprised to see how polite her choice of words will often come out. Indeed, the only trait of hers that anyone would consider rude in a conversation is her insistence on blunt honesty.
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Childhood/Relationship to her father

Post by lindarkness on Sun Feb 01, 2015 5:00 am

Molly was very quiet as a child, but even though she didn’t speak much, she was quite expressive, and it was always very clear from her expressions and her actions how she felt about anything. She did not make much trouble, though, apart from being easily frightened, shy, and intimidated by strangers, or even people with whom she did not interact with on a regular basis. She’s always had trouble expressing herself through words, you see. As a result of that, she has always been very awkward, and uncomfortable when interacting with other people. She can’t quite get a hold of how you are supposed to have a conversation, or read social cues, and it’s hard for her to pick up the implications of certain things (She has a habit of just… staring at people, and her body language is extremely limited. It looks a little creepy, really). She has to actively think about it, and she has always been very very honest, to the point of being blunt.
Since she was a child she has been feeling somewhat out of place, and a little wrong. She was clumsy and she couldn’t express herself well, so that fueled a lot of insecurity in her. She really loves her parents, and she looks up to them, but as a child, she thought she was letting them down by not being able to do things properly. It probably took her some time before coming to terms with that. She and Percy are quite alike though, much more so than the Lucy I have, so I’d say they would be logically closer.
When Lucy was born, Molly was thrilled. Lucy was sweet and cute, and Lucy very much loved spending time with her big sister. I think Molly didn’t even realize how lonely she’s been until Lucy came along. I mean, sure, she had her parents, but they were grown-ups. Her cousins were mostly either too young, or older, and she had trouble fitting in with her peers from the get-go, so Lucy was probably her first real friend.
For the first few years, they were inseparable - worryingly so. They did literally everything together, and either of them would get anxious if the other went away for even a few minutes. I can imagine their parents trying to get them to interact with their cousins, just to balance it out, but they were pretty codependent either way. And dude, I could go on for three more paragraphs at how unhealthy, and unbalanced that relationship was, and how, if you think about it, Lucy is actually kind of abusive, even though she appeared to be the opposite.
Lucy picked up on how Molly was more reserved, and had more trouble on the outside. (Molly works well on instructions, and rules, and when you just let her out in the open to do as she wants, she tends to feel quite at loss, because she won’t know what she should do, or if what she is doing is right. (That is also why she most likely feels more comfortable with Percy than with Audrey) Insecurity about social awkwardness will bring that along, ya know? That’s why she has such a strict structure of principles and morality, too - makes her feel safer, but I’ll get to that later)
So yeah, in the eyes of her younger sister Molly was weak, fragile, and couldn’t take care of herself. Lucy was almost patronizingly overprotective, while at the same time also being pretty possessive toward her, and as anyone know, that can be a quite toxic combination.
Lucy wanted her big sister all to herself, but she also wanted to have the attention of her parents mostly to herself, so she did her best to attract attention and put herself in the spotlight, while simultaneously isolating Molly from others as much as she could and making her dependent on her. It worked quite easily, really, the sisters made each other happy. Lucy was there to comfort her when she was sad, Lucy was there to have fun with her when she wanted to play, Lucy told her what she should do when she was at loss, Lucy held her hand when she was overwhelmed, Lucy made her smile, Lucy wiped off her tears, Lucy was the only one who could truly understand her.
I’ll try not to go into too much detail about this, but basically the most prominent results of that were that Molly became more submissive, and that she never really developed her social skills at all, and that she became more insecure, and more drawn to Lucy for comfort. Molly was having her world shaped by her sister, and she was blind to alternatives. She became more stoic, too, less expressive. On the other hand, she felt safer, too. Lucy always made sure that Molly was happy and protected.
As you’ve probably picked up, Molly is a Squib, and I’m sure that her family worried about her distinctive lack of accidental magic, especially when they compared her to Lucy, who showed a shit ton of accidental magic (kept setting things on fire and stuff) For a while, they thought that maybe she was just a late bloomer, but on the eleventh birthday it was made clear that she really was a Squib.
That totally did wonders for her self-esteem.
Molly is an angsty little ball of self-loathing, and that is part of the reason why. It’s not because she wants to be special, or because she wants to play with magic and go to Hogwarts and all that jazz. It’s more of some internalized judgement, I guess? It’s a little hard to describe, but basically, Molly feels like there is something wrong with her, that she is somehow wrong. Shes awkward, clumsy, inept… and a Squib, so she feels like she is useless.
She just wants to have worth, and she doesn’t feel like she has much of that - more reason for her to cling so heavily to order and principle, I guess. It’s a method of coping for her and it will only come forward more as she grows up. She does not like change, she likes to do things the same way, spend her days in the same pattern, etc.
Much more important to her, however, is the concept of morality. Honesty, and justice are the two principles that she values most (She’d so totally would be a Hufflepuff if she was a witch), and she obeys them almost slavishly. Molly has a very black and white view of the world - probably a result of her idealistic outlook which in itself is a result of her sheltered upbringing - and she is very stubborn, and judgmental. I’m not surprised by the fact that she doesn’t have any friends, really.
But her being a Squib also resulted in something positive, as she was sent to the local Muggle school instead of Hogwarts where she was able to come back home every day, so the separation from her sister was much more gradual, and both of them had a few years to get used to spend time away from each other, before Lucy went off to Hogwarts, so it came as less off a shock.
Though, Lucy still tried to smuggle Molly in with her trunk, but Audrey caught her so that didn’t go very far.
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Fears

Post by lindarkness on Sun Feb 01, 2015 5:03 am

There are a few things that she is afraid of, and listing all of them would take too much time, and distract from the core of things. Let me explain four major sources of her fear here.

1 - Lucy- The way she feels about her sister, the sister that she still refuses to speak to, is vast and confusing. The emotions that will cloud her mind if you even as much as mention her name around her, are enough to put her thoughts into an incomprehensible blur with each time. Anger, disgust, love, sadness, dread, regret - fear, most surprisingly is amongst them. If you’d ask her, I doubt she’d be able to explain it, or even recognize the fear. Maybe she’d confuse it for intimidating, for jealousy,  anger, or any of these things. Yet, it is fear of what Lucy has done to her, fear of getting hurt again. All these years meekly standing by her side have taken a toll on the young women, who doesn’t even know how much this truly affected her. Lucy is a synonym for pain, mental and emotional. Lucy is false reassurance, shallow protection, and a break of reality - deception. It is a fear of her own weakness, like that. Molly is afraid of deception. She’s afraid of giving in to her sister once again. She’s afraid of losing her completely.

2 - Being wrong  - This has nothing to do with facts, academics or simple arguments. Molly is used to and can very much live with instances where she is factually or logically wrong about something. She pretty much expects it to happen more often than not, since she doesn’t consider herself to be intelligent. No, this point has to do with morality, and the distinction what is the right, or wrong thing to do. Molly is very particular, some might say, anal about her own principles. It is a very clear system of black and white that leaves hardly no room for flexibility. It is her rock, the strict order gives her a feeling of safety, of superiority, of knowing how to be a good person. Justice and honesty are most important to her, and upholding these principles is one of her greatest priorities. If she were to violate them, even unknowingly, would damage her significantly. She frets endlessly over the smallest mistakes, the slightest shred of doubt, and even interference of absolute necessity. Molly needs order in her life to feel safe, and her principles of morality are the greatest order she has installed for herself. If those were to break down, so would she.

3 - Crowds/Strangers - No matter of how much experience she keeps having with other, there wil always be something alien about them to her. She has no idea how to go bout interacting with them, or even sharing the same space. It might seem irrationall at first. Truly, however, it is a fear of the unknown.

4 - Getting sick/injured - Her physical ability is one thing - one might argue the only thing - that Molly is truly proud of. It most definitely the only thing that gives her the feeling of fully being in charge of herself and her own actions. Therefore, losing that, even temporarily is something she is very much afraid of, especially since she already feels like she’s somehow ‘defect’ due to being a Squib.
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Potential for Darkness

Post by lindarkness on Sun Feb 01, 2015 5:05 am

  At first sight, Molly doesn’t really seem like the type of person who would easily do something bad. She is extremely idealistic, for once, full of faith, loyal to a fault, and almost slavishly devoted to her moral principles. Yet, it is exactly these trait that give her such a great potential of turning villainous in some way, and even make her cross that line sometimes.
   Molly has two great problems with her mindset, and the way that she handles issues of morality. For once, she is made very uncomfortably by “chaos” and disorder, or blurred lines in any situation, and uses order, structure, and clear lines and definition to maneuver herself in the world. As a result of that, she has a tendency to see issues of morality as very black and white, without being able to consider the nuances of a particular situation. Obviously, this can easily lead to multiple problems in her judgement.
   Second, even though she does have a great capacity for empathy and compassion, she still tends to prioritise offenses against a general principle in her mind above offenses against actual people. This, too, stems from her desire for order, and guidance. The strict moral code she has constructed for herself is something she desperately needs to feel safe and secure in her actions, and she uses it almost like a crutch in that regard.
   When she has emotional responses that conflict, even just in the slightest, with her moral code, she is profoundly confused and disturbed by that. And so, if only for her own sanity, she puts the focus on her principles and blocks out conflicting emotions as best as she can.
   This is action is mostly unconscious, but it does have very real and conscious consequences. For once, it leads to a mindset in which the severity of a crime makes little difference, only the fact that a principle was violated does, and that your actions were wrong. 
   Thirdly - though this is more of a problem in her perception than a flaw in her morality - it is difficult for her to really perceive and understand violations of morality that aren’t obvious or have no real perpetrator. She doesn’t really have the capacity to get behind systematic injustices beyond “A lot of people are prejudiced and mean and that’s bad”. I read something interesting in that direction the other day about how Batman only beats up little criminals on the streets, wile still upholding the unjust system and not doing much to change things. Molly has a similar problem right there, and often fails to see the bigger picture.
   Also, and this is something I think you guys already noticed, she has a lot of trust in authority, and can often times be very naive. That, in combination with how much she craves love and affection make it quite clear how someone could take advantage of her. So, even if her morality does not fail her in some way, there is still the possibility of her being manipulated and mislead.
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